It was cool afternoon or you can say morning, for me, as I just woke up. My mind was blank like literally blank; I just starred at everything as I have lost all the teachings, ethics and etiquettes which the society taught me time by time. I was then brought to my senses by a friend who slapped my face like I was some sort of bitch. I got up and went into the living room for a little chit chat but the guy was busy social networking on his smartphone and I had to come back to my bed again. I laid there for a while then opened my notebook to see my schedule for the day and there was nothing on it except that I missed my class, AGAIN. On the spot, I opened my mail and sent an email to my lecturer with some mainstream excuse in it. I browsed some folders to look for a nice movie that will add the joy to this beautiful afternoon; and eventually I found “The Perks of being a Wallflower”. This title “The Perks of being a Wallflower” was in my mail in the form of a novel since September 2012 and as a movie since February 2013. After watching it, I realized that I should have watched and read it ages ago so that I won’t be in this depressive anxiety mood, in which I was. Oh and Yes, If you have trouble finding yourself till now I would recommend you to watch this movie or read the novel. After watching the movie my mind is not blank anymore it is filled up with stuff; stuff that will help me.
I don’t have any friend to whom I write letters like the guy from the movie, but the character it was based on reflected me and my life since September 2011. You people might be wondering about one aspect of that character and I would like to answer that as NO, nothing of that happened with me, okay? Yes, on this day and forward I would accept my self as a wallflower and I know that I will be the same till the day of my funeral. Wallflower is someone who just exist, who stands alone in a crowded place looking with hopes and desires at the people present and waiting for someone to notice him/her. He just observes everything instead of participating; hence the biggest advantage of being a wallflower for me is that I can learn from others’ experiences. I know most of you will be making fun of me or the movie, but you never know who and what might help you to know yourself. I am not a blogger or a writer and you might have figured it out by now after reading it her because I don’t know what to and how to write about, but I have started it to let the people know that there are people like me who exist in the world; who most of the times are alone and spend their times usually on social networks with the people who might not even exist in real life. That character ,”Charlie”, form the movie taught me that there is nothing wrong even if you are shy or uncomfortable with the people but instead just be who you are and you will get through everything. Because everyone has a sad story but its not a excuse in this world. Yes, I don’t have a real friend and I need to find one quick who can take off this wallflower and put it in a vase.
But in the end “We accept the love we think we deserve!”